I have several times related here that when I don’t know how to process my emotions, I write a letter either in general or to a specific person. This is one of those times, where I am trying to reconcile my emotions after hearing some pretty heartbreaking things coming out of the mouth of my oldest child. Sufficed to say, he didn’t say anything that I didn’t already know in the back of my mind, but that he recognized those things and his visual expressions were what caused my heartbreak.